I'm an impatient sort -- always looking for the next jolt. That's why this period is frustrating. I can't focus on my work, I can't feel accomplishment doing the mundane chores of life. I am floundering.
Most who know me counsel patience. Not my strong suit.
So now I flounder, flopping with a jittery bend.
line shadow, Paula Kovarik, 2013
The Carnival Fountain (Fastnachtsbrunnen) created by Blasius Spreng in Mainz, Germany rose up in the center of a placid square with great presence. It is a cacaphonous piling of partiers and objects representing Carnival. According to TripAdvisor the carnival (Fasching) season is known as the fifth season, it begins on 11/11 at 11:11 a.m. I'll mark my calendar.
I loved the crazy pile of wacky characters and the light and drizzly rain on the day I visited gave it a macabre look. The rain and fountain water obscures and adds motion to the solid bronze. The heads and figures gaze out with mysterious motives, this party may not be as fun as we had imagined it....
Collections reveal aesthetic. These sixteen cups have been in Mom's hutch for years. None has a history that I am aware of, they just caught her eye and demanded her purchase. Mom wasn't a tea drinker and she wasn't particularly girlie. Yet, she chose these delicate cups as something to gaze on each day. I think they are telling me a story of her aesthetic and her yearning for beautiful things.
Paula Kovarik, 2013. Hands
This is a work-in-progress shot of a piece I started while mom was sick. It is done on a simple linen dress my friend Leigh Ann found for me (she is my best treasure hunter).
Coming back to it now after mom has passed brings up memories of sitting by her bed. After she fell asleep, I sat in front of the numbing TV set to disappear into a new mindset by stitching compulsively on this dress. I wasn't sure where it was going, I just knew I had to have something to keep me busy. I think I will put the dress back together and hang it from a hanger, maybe with a lining made from one of her garments.
Wish I could bring her back as simply as that.
Here are a couple of detail shots of the Round and Round It Goes quilt. The closer you look the more you see. This one has war, patriotism and overpopulation.
Round and Round It Goes, Paula Kovarik, 2012and this one has a tsunami, oil spills, and parades of polluting cars and trucks
Round and Round It Goes, Paula Kovarik, 2012and here is a little detail of the economy, mixed up weather patterns, gas fracking, nuclear power companies and the canary in the coalmine.
Round and Round It Goes, Paula Kovarik, 2012
