a simple sense of relief

The show at the Buckman gallery was mostly a blur to me. That big dose of adrenaline required to rev up my social skills dissipated as soon as the show began and I realized that most people there were just regular folks with an interest in my work. And, it turns out, they were really interested. Many asked for back stories on the concepts, process and thoughts behind the pieces. Not one compared the work to those treasured grandma quilts on their beds or in their hope chests. The larger pieces actually attracted some small audiences to listen to what I was saying.

Nor sure what I said really. Felt like one big babble. But I came out of it intact emotionally and buoyed by the positive support that was surrounding me. I didn't trip, drool or burp inappropriately. For now I am glad it is over. I'm glad that I made the effort. And I'm glad we didn't run out of carrot sticks.

Whew! Now I can go back to work.

me nervous?

Nightmares of showing up late? Yes. Doubts about the work? you bet. Thinking of calling in sick? hmmm....that might be the answer.

The show opening is tonight. All my work on public walls.

This is part of it right?

 

two more days

do the doodle, detail, Paula Kovarik

Two more days before the opening of my show at the Buckman Gallery here in Memphis. Reading tne news today about galleries in the East Village flooding made me nervous to think of all this work in a different space without my watchful eye on it.

Let's face it, I am nervous about everything these days...is the work good enough? will I make inane comments at the opening (yes)? Will people just look at it and say i..n..t...e..r..e..s..t..i..n..g..and drift off to the nearest exit? Will I trip and spill white wine all over someone?

Why do I feel compelled to show the work? If I could be behind the scenes watching it on webcam I would feel much more comfortable.

Not in

Received word last week that my pieces did not get chosen for FiberArt International. My reaction to the email was neutral. I am so focused on my show opening this friday and the pieces that I want to create in the future that the thought of another show somewhere else makes me weary. I would have liked to be included. Last year's show was really something special and the chance to be a part of it would have been an honor. 

For now I am satisfied with what is happening with my art and that is what is most important to me.

debuting a fabric

I am starting a new piece that starts with this tablecloth. I love the detail on it and the simple geometric pattern the cutwork creates. Bad thing about working with pieces like this is taking that first step. To dye or not to dye? to cut or not to cut? Start in the middle or from the outside? Where does the narrative begin?

The good thing about projects like this is that there are always surprises.